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One thing you will realize when you get to know me is that I have a tendency to worry. A lot. About important things or useless tiny things. Sometimes I worry so much I get sick.

Lately, things have gotten out of control. I don't even know who I am anymore. Am I a brave person? Quiet? Scared? Honest? Caring? I never really knew who I was, but I had a loose grip on who I thought I was becoming. I feel as if I was a nice, neat stack of papers that was carelessly knocked down and spilled everywhere. Imagine the mess that makes. I feel as if I am paralized and cannot reach down to pick myself up.

Honestly, I don't know what to do. Believe me, I have my happy moments and I am not depressed in any way, I just feel helpless sometimes. Doesn't everyone?

My bones are your bones. My home is your home.

I can't seem to go past Envy on the Coast on my i-Pod. 'Lucy Gray' has been on repeat for the longest time. It's such a good cd.

Things have been really hard lately, I'm so stressed. If something is out of place I feel like nothing can go right or it will go all wrong. I need a mental health day. SOON.
Other than that I have been happy, I guess.

My birthday is in a month, I'll be 15. Why do I feel so much older?

On a happy note, GO WATCH RASTA MAN. Jesus, I love Andy Samberg. His Digital Shorts are fucking hilarious. Hahah

I haven't updated in a looooong time but that is because I recently got a tumblr.(www.tumblr.com/asummerchill)

I have a Halloween party tomorrow and I'm being Where's Waldo. I can't believe out of everyone I told only two actually knew who he was. My best friend is being Wenda, his girlfriend. Hahaha. It's going to be fun. I feel like I haven't been out of the house in a while.

School is kicking my ass too. NHS just started up. Another worry to put on my list.

Oh, and I realized I am the MOST awkward person ever. :/

We say summer holds such wonderful things...

I thought this summer was going to be horrible but it turned out to be one of the best ones yet.


Highlights:
Danger Radio/Cute show
Warped w/ Amber and Cassie
DANCE ACROSS THE COUNTRY w/ Emily was the best night of the summer.
Losing weight
Spending time with my family


Everything this summer was pretty positive. I no longer believe I'm a pessimist.

I've changed and it's for the better.

New to this...

I'm quite boring and never know what to write or say but I made one anyway. :)


I'll update more once I get the hang of this.